Monday, November 26

youtube hit list...

Dian's youtube top 5 hit list. Hehehe. Think of it as a mixed tape from me... :)

#1.Damien Rice - Blower's Daughter
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UHPTHP4dihA
#2. J-lo feat. Fat Joe - Hold you down
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qX_LgaImEUE&feature=related
#3. Tamia - Officially Missing You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZFDuJo_sy78
#4. Fievel - Somewhere out there
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jhCP40PpW0k
#5. The Cure - Cut Here
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YnYD-_8uUpA

Friday, November 16

anak-mama's sms with mama

anak-mama: Mother how are you...? I miss you (11.31am)

mama: I miss you so much too, but u always busy. Mama dalam perjalanan ke harapan kita (11.46)

anak-mama: I'm sorry mama. I never meant to make you sad (eminem kayo kore!?) . I love you. Sun sayang utk papa juga ya.. Hehehe kalau bisa yang lama sampai supir taxinya malu... (11.48)

Bener juga kata mama, anandanya ini sering terkesan sibuk. Sibuk sih ngga, Ma. Cuma lupa. Lupa sama yang prioritas. Sibuk berdoa minta ini-itu, sampai-sampai yang di depan mata dan sangat amat berharga jadi tidak terlihat. Padahal, kalau sampai doanya terkabul waktu ananda untuk ibunda bakalan fuechau. Okaasan kitto kanashii dayone? haaa.. *namida ga dechatta..*. Doushookana..? Dakara, ima atashi nanka sono inotte chotto chuushi dake de ii [akirameru wake janakute] ? Kamisama yori itadaita made omachi shite orimasu wa..
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beralih ke melankoli yang lain yuks... sebuah lagu yang gue dengerin berulang2 sama abang gue Pilar di mobil, pas selasa 131107:

the cure ^^^ cut here

"So we meet again!" and I offer my hand
All dry and English slow
And you look at me and I understand
Yeah it's a look I used to know
"Three long years... and your favourite man... Is that any way to say hello?"
And you hold me...
like you'll never let me go
"Oh c'mon and have a drink with me
Sit down and talk a while..."
"Oh I wish I could... and I will!
But now I just don't have the time...
" And over my shoulder as I walk away
I see you give that look goodbye...
I still see that look in your eye...

So dizzy Mr. Busy - Too much rush to talk to Billy
All the silly frilly things have to first get done
In a minute - sometime soon -
maybe next time - make it June
Until later... doesn't always come

It's so hard to think
"It ends sometime
And this could be the last
I should really hear you sing again
And I should really watch you dance
" Because it's hard to think
"I'll never get another chance
To hold you... to hold you...

" But chilly Mr. Dilly - Too much rush to talk to Billy
All the tizzy fizzy idiot things must get done
In a second - just hang on - all in good time - wont be long
Until later...

I should've stopped to think -
I should've made the time
I could've had that drink -
I could've talked a while
I would've done it right -
I would've moved us on


But I didn't -
now it's all too late
It's over... over
And you're gone..
I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you so much
But how many times can I walk away and wish "If only..."
But how many times can I talk this way and wish "If only..."
Keep on making the same mistake
Keep on aching the same heartbreak
I wish "If only..." But "If only...."
Is a wish too late...

This is another cool example why the cure's music is so intelligently wholesome. Not only the beauty of their melody accompanied by that eccentric vocal that has its own melody to match the instruments, Man!! the lyrics are so poetic. For example, how they play with the tempo on the chorus:
[[So dizzy Mr. Busy - Too much rush to talk to Billy
All the silly frilly things have to first get done
In a minute - sometime soon -
maybe next time - make it June
Until later... doesn't always come]] shows how hectic life can be if we let the less important things take our reign.so they speed up this part.dizzying with the tempo.excellent!

then there's the excess use of these words of regret: should've, would've, could've.

and towards the ending, just where regret really sets in, the narrator of this story can't say anything but this:
[[I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you so much ]]


JUST ANOTHER LOVELY WHOLESOME MELANCHOLIC SONG FROM ONE OF MY FAVORITES. thanks pilar (anakmama numerouno) for the time, the music, the everythings.
♥love you bro♥


Friday, November 2

in the name of the daughter

She lies on her back in bed.
The room is dark, her hands cover her face.
She silently weeps. Tears seeping through her fingers down the sides of her cheeks.
Tears of anger, confusion, loss, and need.
Her shoulders tremble as her heart crumbles.
Let her cry.
Let her cry.
Let her tears wash away the expectations, dreams, hopes, and sweet nothings with him...
Sweet nothings. are nothing..
Nothing she can hold.
Nothing she can protect her fragile abstract organ with.
Let her fall asleep, in her heart-shaped garden.
Her tears magically turn into honey dew.
It twinkles in the dawn light and helps her grow.
Let her wake up the next day.
Bright and cheerful.
As the name her parents gave her.
To shine and shine forever on...